..

woohoooooo! i have LEO-PARD :) soo shhhhhhheeexy....


anywho, are there ppl in your life whom you cant look at...bcz the thought of the pisses you off? yea..i have a few of those. and i cant stand it. bcz youre freakin EVERYWHERE. i hear of you EVERYWHERE. and i just can stand it anymore. im so glad youre gone...leaving....... so i will never have to see u again. the days i saw you were nice. but i will NEVER do it again. there's something about you. ah. i was so stupid.

as for you, youre so damn goodlooking it pisses me off that youre good- looking and a fag all at the same time. whatever. we had our good times. its fine ;)

and you, i dont actually look at you or your pictures. your name pisses me off. thats enough ahahahhahahaa


w/e. im just a HATER.


busy freakin week.


excited for school? heh...........

goodbye

i just had a goodbye talk with my co-worker..
although, it really isn't goodbye since i'm coming back on sept5 to pick up another project =/ i dont think it's hit me till now that i've been here for 3 years... THREE YEARS?! omg...summer co-op.....ooooh boy. it was my first encounter dealing with older peeps...and being around them for hours a day. there are some strange people but overall, very nice. i like how i'm not treated like a student although it's clear i'm the only student in this building. it's a real job and now...its OVERRRRRRRRR. not quite yet...but almost. i havent learned much here but i've sure gained a crap load of connections with big designers which is why im guaranteed an intern placement during 3rd year. maybe at that time, i'll want bigger things but the opportunity to work in a real design firm is there, and i'm thankful. i've really worked my ass off to make this career of mine happen right before my eyes. i don't think it's really grown but it's definitely getting me somewhere. I like to believe that because i've worked so hard, things come easy. but that doesn't necessarily work because i did try hard to begin with. oh complications. i just want my name to be out there as a young designer. i don't care whether people say i'm good or not, i just want to be known for doing a lot at a young age. the design industry is all about experience. i can get into the whole issue of having a degree vs. having real job experiences but i won't. it's too complicated. my journey as a little design intern to becoming an actual "uncertified graphic designer" has been a real interesting experience. but for now, i'll settle to just being a university "student." that's all. i'll just wait and finish design school before i think about becoming a "certified designer." one chapter ends and another one starts. york university, here i come!!!!!!!!! :)

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woohoo0o0oo!!!!!!!! let the summer begin!!!!!!
ahhhhhhfuck. it's already over.
let me remind myself that i've done nothing summer.
i have been working 5 days a week, 40 hours a week, 8 hours a day
i've done nothing this summer
i haven't even seen the damn olympics that i do enjoy
i only have a week left until school starts

high school is over. yes julie, it is. it was over long ago. you know, it still hasnt kicked in that high school is over. that's why i dont really have a post on the end of highschool. i refuse to believe its over since i'm stil in contact with my teachers which is wrong..bcz i shoouldve kicked them out of my life the second school finished! just kidding! but yea...i'm still in highschool until sept 2nd or 3rd... i dont know the date school starts. i dont want to know. wait, i'm not in highschool anymore but i'll pretend i am..........it makes me feel better so let me be.


:)
happy weekend!

PS: i hope to get a pair of new spectacles this weekend. the damn eye doctor finally has my lenses after realizing i can't go back to indonesia just to get a new pair because HE screwed up my prescription... ha ha ha............. i'm looking at armani's and a Guess pair. choices..choices. i'll get both :)

SIGNS

15 signs you're a bad graphic designer
http://justcreativedesign.com/2007/12/06/bad-graphic-design/

23 Signs That You're Becoming a Design Geek
http://www.crestock.com/blog/design/23-signs-that-youre-becoming-a-design-geek-26.aspx



this is funny

last day!

yay :) last day of work.
i'm not that sad cause i know it won't be the end of the PDSB for me....although i will not be returning next year. i told myself i will not give in and take any jobs anymore. i deserve a break from designing outside of school.

i have a lady working behind me. it's a little awkward bcz she won't get out of her seat. she hasn't even eaten lunch yet. i wonder if shes hungry..i can give her a bit of my food :) maybe not.

i'm anticipating a relaxing weekend. i'm having pizza night with the family tonight. havent had pizza in a while...

yayyy! elvis is coming back today!! for one hour :/ i cant wait to see pictures.


so..remember how i had the original idea or ordering business cards in indonesia? well, i've changed my mind. i want something more interesting than a folding business card as if that's not interesting enough. i'm going for either a "green" business card or a frosty plastic one. i think a business card can portray a lot about you as a designer. it's like..the first impression but not exactly considering you must meet the person to give them a card...unless you mail it or something.i'm just shopping around looking for good deals. they're quite pricey. i'm looking at around $300+ for about 150-200 cards. that is REALLY expensive. by the time i establish myself in the industry, maybe i'll be giving away a free computer with my contacts engraved on it or something.. who knows!


back to the research. i'm not designing ANYTHING for the rest of the day. it's kind of like a scavenger hunt trying to look for all my printed publications here at the board. no one seems to know where they are anymore...... it makes me a little worried.



toodles <3
have a FABBBBBB weekend!

:|

ahh...second last day of work.
i'm going out for lunch with the co-workers today.

it's been a very busy couple weeks.
yesterday, i went for tux fittings with the groomsmen and my brother+fiance.
lol. i never realized how boring and unform-fitting tuxes and suits are.
it almost makes me feel super for being a girl lol

elvis is coming back from the Dominican republic tmw..
he's gonna be back for an hour..and leave to montreal =/

it's my little cousins birthday this weekend.
i cant believe how fast they all grow..
ethan and justin are starting school =/ wtheck. that's..just to fast.
and i'm going to university. ..my parents should feel old...real old!


to all you girls out there: now is the best time to get swimwear !! they're soooooo cheap!!!!! i got 2 more..although i wont have the chance to wear them this year, i can wer them next year. i have 3 new ones and 2 older ones. i better be going to the beach every week next summer to make good use of them!


cant believe the summer holidays are nearly over............
wait.. the summer holidays are nearly over but my summer jobs aren't..i can't believe i'm carrying client projects over to the new school year because they don't freakin check their email. I just sent emails telling them i need to move forward..i'm starting school so please check your emails? ok, it wasn't literally worded like that...but something along those lines.

i have:
- RUAWARE workbook, welcome poster, event poster (this is gonna be bitch work)
- CM letterhead, web banner
- Firwin brochures x2
- PDSB event crap..i dont have details on this one yet

seriously...........i'm too nice in this design world sometimes....
i'm not sure how im gonna finish this all considering i only have 1 day off of school now.....

lol

i guess i'n not the only one that thinks youre a jerk.
i'm sooooooo over it. fag.


so..i have 2 1/2 days of work left...
and..........they gave me a new project.
WTFFFFFFFFFFFFF?!!!!!!



...............

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

omggggggg.
my IB art stuff got remarked and i went up a level!!!!!!!!!
i knew i deserved more than i got.......im so excited and it bought my average up..not that it makes that much of a difference now.... but still.... :D who knew my stuff would get remarked..i didnt. i think everyone's stuff got remarked. we all deserve higher grades. i was shocked with the initial levels... =/ oh.. art is too subjective.

that is good news.

but i'm having a shit time dealing with my timetable for york.
it was requested that i shift one of my classes since one of the courses i enrolled in was "overloaded" which isnt my fault..but i offered to switch things around and now my timetable is even more screwed since everything is closed. i'm doing something nice n get myself into more confusion.


but im happy :)


**********EDIT************ 2:35PM
woohoo! my timetable works out now. classes are switched around but it's all good since i don't have a FULL day at sheridan. but i dont have thursday off anymore...but at least everything is spread out. i'm happy. the york lady is happy.

back to my project runway....
i'm at work..oh yea.............. back to work?

i am EXHAUSTEDDDDDDDDDD
i'm at work and i just want to fall asleep...considering no one is here :)

last night i was at niagara falls... mid-day till late night.
did not sleep well at all. the A/C wasnt on.
my dad turns it on when it's not hot but turns it off when its burning hot........
i dont get it.




one more week!
of work that is :)

ahhhhh

i'm trying to get my freelancing jobs done and over with but my clients take too long to reply to emails which pushes the whole design process behind. so i end up just doing what i can and leaving the rest...it's so..ugh..frustrating!

so i was told that the information for my RUAWARE stuff won't be done by this friday.........and i finish work the week after giving me very LITTLE time to pull all the designs and text together. so i'm going to be working from home once i start university.....which shouldn't be all that bad cause i get to invoice more as a freelancer...but it's my start of uni =/ of well. i'm also getting a brand new project out of PDSB....my life stinks!!!!!!! i make money but dont have time to spend it! not that it matters...that much :P

i'm going to "design" a new resume today...i'm going to try and get a part-time job during school cause i THINK i have time to...we'll see how it goes! i want to become a stylist or visual merchandiser..

the soon-to-be sister in law's sister is coming tonight.
uptown today? hmmmmm. not sure yet!

w/e

deleted my post.




i hate you. i don't need to say anymore.
i think i've said that 5million times already.
just incase you forgot..........

you know what i hate?
the weather! it's so blah..and inconsistent.
on saturday, i had to wear a jacket. SERIOUSLY!
the effects of global warming and people treating the world like shit (that includes me too...sometimes!)

i'm trying to get this RUAWARE junk finished so i can clear up my freelancing stuff cause it's going to take forever. the proof for Directions came in. minor errors but overall, i'm happy :)

what am i going to do today?
i'm still sore.... :S
waking around ikea and the mall yesterday doesn't make my legs feel any better


back to work..........

RUAWARE? 08

so this is what i've been working on all day today. i started 2 weeks ago...but i'm embarrassed to show my first copy. this thing has gone through many transformations and face lifts. i'm not quite done yet...since i dont have any information to put on it...due to .......lazy coworkers! or lack of coworkers...no one is ever working.

so sleepy. time to loaft and do nothing!
i'm not lazy. i just work too fast and i end up having nothing to do. so i have to share my work so i have stuff to do the next day. it's sad.........

:S

i just got asked to be an "actress" for some video
LOLLLLLLLLLLL. i can't act if my life depended on it.
thank God no students will see this thing.
i made sure before i accepted the offer


i have a massive headache
i did not sleep well at all.
i got into bed at 2am =/

it's going to be a long day...........

too much work........

i have 2 weeks left of work.
uhh wait. about a week and a half =/
and i have SOOOOOOOOO much junk to finish.
- RUAWARE? book cover
- RUAWARE? book content design
- RUAWARE? poster design
...something is missing. i'm not sure what


this is my freelance stuff:

- C.D. logo design
- C.D. business card
- C.D. signage

- Cecily Markus business cards
- Cecily Markus letterhead
- Cecily Markus envelope design
- Cecily Markus website banner

- Firwin brochure x2


all of this needs to be done..or should be done before frosh.
FFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

but i'm making lots of $$$. cause i freakin need it!
i'm buying a new ipod this weekend to reward myself.
my current ipod has a crappy battery. dies after 2 hours of use...or less.

and i'm gonna buy more workout clothes
shopping :)


AHHHHHHHH. back to work

crush

I hung up the phone tonight,
Something happened for the first time,
Deep inside it was a rush, what a rush,
Cause the possibility that
You would ever feel the same away about me,
It’s just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth,
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized,
And I just got to know

Do you ever think, when you’re all alone,
All that we can be, where this thing can go,
Am I crazy or falling in love,
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath, when I look at you,
Are you holding back, like the way I do,
Cause I’m tryin’, tryin’ to walk away
But I know this crush aint’ goin’ away, goin’ away

Has it ever cross your mind when we’re hangin’,
Spending time boy,
Are we just friends, is there more, is there more,
See it’s a chance we’ve gotta take,
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last,
Last forever, forever

day off work today.
i did soo much stuff.
went to yorku. got my student card.
got sweats! that says YORK on the ass cause i got to REPRESENT (my shitty ass school!)
i did scholarship shit
got mcdicks Olympic cups
went to the doctor

UGH

i'm not sure if i'm a lot more frustrated about all of this than i should be. i care a lot more than i should. or should i say YOU let me care a lot more than i should.

FUCKIN ASSSSSSS. i hate you =/ i can't stop telling myself that.


what the...shit.
there's something about you that makes me want to slam your head into a guy's asshole. cause you deserve that shit.




ANYWAYS, gnite.

so tired

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ANYWAYS
i'm off to bed.
what am i doing at 2 am?
trying to digest apple pie and french vanilla ice cream, that's what.

i need to sleep to clear my mind.
i dont believe it's been a month and i'm still pissed or w/e i'm feeling..


gnite lovers!

OMGGGGGGGGGGGG. my internet is blocked. facebook, youtube.... OMGGGGGGGGGG

wtf. i'm gonna find a way around this..somehow.


ON a BETTER note, i just got a new client!
i hate getting new clients cause i never know how much to charge so i ask for people's opinions and ..its just a mess. but w/e. money is money!

business cards

sooooo........ i was making a business card for the physio company and was so concentrated i didnt realize i got caught doing other work..at work! LOLLLLLL opppps. that's okay. i'm making more money freelancing anyway........................

i'm working for a client who knows his stuff. designs terms....design techniques and blah blah. he is a marketing guy..so yea! but working for client who know the general aspects of my job can sometimes cause trouble cause they act like they know more than I do =/ and they go all technical on me.........and sometimes, you just need to tell them to shut up, in a nice way of course. i've already sent 2 emails to him explaining why I did what I did and why I didn't do what he wanted. but as a designer, you always do what your client wants EXCEPT for when they ask for something that you know will fuck up their business...cause they're aiming for the wrong target audience. a professional company should not have childish designs........ graphics do not work as letters/text in the professional world. thats a BIG no no! sometimes i just want to smack my head on a cow cause i get to frustrated with some people. luckily it's behind the screen! HAHA

somehow.. i've kept my cool after designing more than 12 logos for this man. that is NOT exaggerated. I've sent MANY samples. it's interesting cause for any other client, i would just design 1 logo and work off that, make changes and w/e. but i guess because i'm working for somehow who understands my job, i need to actually try and do more...cause he can go find someone else =/ and above all...he is my brother's boss. so if i screw up........ i wonder what can happen to my brother!

i've always wondered if I could make a living off freelancing my whole life without actually having a design degree... cause i don't really like school. i think i would benefit more from learning off other people. maybe not. i dont know. we'll wait and seeeeee. i may learn too much in design school...and my small brain might not be able to handle it all. LOL. damn, i took SPEECH IMPROVEMENT. why? cause i can't talk! LOLLLLLL i wanted an easy time that fit in my timetable..and art history shit isn't going to work for me! so i had to take a theater course =/

enough design talk. it's making me sick.

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taste on danforth, sunday? is it raining? let me checkkkkkk.
uh yea. its definitely raining and it's cold.

my safari isn't working so i'm not visiting my usual sites saved in my favourites.
which is why I did quite a bit of work today..........freelance work..

sorrrrrrrrry

the lack of posts are due to......the FUCKLOAD of work i have!!!!!!!!

anywho, i walked into work today with a bunch of co-op students standing infront of the foyer...and i thought about it. that was me THREE summers ago. omg =/ and i'm still here ..at this crappy job!!!!!!! maybe i'm complaining a lot more than i should. i do watch... A LOT of shows..take super long breaks...and.......slack but still, at the end of the day, i do more than anyone else here! well more than the other dude here =/ time flies by too fast. and now im done highschool =/

believe it or not, the fact that highschool has ended hasnt hit me yet. i dont think it will until i start university.....im anxious, scared, worried! i dont know!

i have monday off!!!!!!! with no pay, CRAP! im going to YORKU to get my student card...bcz i have yet to do so. and frosh is coming up...so yeaaaaa!


oh yea, i also do this at work..just kidding. it was just that one day i took pics to savor my memories at this place ... ha ha ha YES, i work in the dark. half the lights are off. thats how i like it. i'll admit, i actually TRIED to make the photoshop look decent. kind of........and YES, i just sat there infront of my laptop taking pictures of myself cause i love myself THATTTTTT much. yea.....................................


BACK TO WORK.
woohoo.
DIRECTORY was off to print yesterday
and i'm sending off DIRECTIONS today!

FINALLY!
the bitch work is coming to and endddddddddd........!!!!!!!

TGIF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


PS: I also hide my boyfriend under my desk at work so he never leaves my side :) cause you know, boyfriends are ALWAYSSSS suppose to be there for you!!!!!!! just kidding :) he hides in my HUGEEEEEEEEE tote bag......cause i have so much crap to bring to work everyday. might as well bring a side kick...i mean boyfriend...i mean...invisible person that is yet to exist =/ nvm. i'll shut up now.

LATERRRRRRRRRRRRR

ALL ALONEEEEEEEEEEEE

im going out of my minddddd
i've been missing you for quite some timeeeeeeeeee

all aloneeeee i am all aloneeeeeeeee
boy picture me and i all alone

baby please come back to meeee
cause that would mean the world to meeeeeee
cause nowwwwwww, i'm all aloneeeeeee


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anywho, my soon-to-be sister-in-law is coming todayyyyyyyy!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ohhhhhhhh!!!!!!!
now i know why you're so ugly!!!!!!!!!!!

you have HORSE teeth!!!!!!!!
eww.




:)

my weekend

- dads birthday!
- dads birthday party
- sherway gardens
- vaughn mills
- uhhhhhhhhh. that's about it!

- visited huntington ridge!!!!!!!!!
- saw my PT teacher from fairwind at bass pro shop!!!!!!


i'll update later :)