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i've never felt so uncared for in my life....
the words i say mean nothing. and i simply dont understand why....
mistakes are made but it shouldn't change who you are regardless of how you say u feel...
how am i dealing with this everyday or trying to...
the hardest part is sitting there thinking to your self what is going to happen next...
what am i going to have to hear or take next...
all i want is reassurance and care....because i havent felt it in so long....
i don't overreact just so i enjoy the pain i have to face from it
i'm emotionally torn apart... so next time, don't tell me im overdoing it.
having to hide my tears is the worst part because you can't take it
having to keep my feelings inside sucks when you don't appreciate it
having to keep my comments to myself because you don't want to hear it
having to change who i am because you can't stand it
what am i suppose to do now that i've fallen for someone who has fallen out of his place?
you'll never understand or see what's wrong until you feel it
and i, feel it. regardless of intentions or not, you are torturing me in a way i've never felt before..


i've lost you ....
& you've gone too far to get a hold of ...


i'm doing what my horoscope is telling me to do & praying for the best ...
but my prayers have never been heard ...